I'm now at the 'big reveal' stage and it's giving me a headache. This is the point were so much has to gel together and timing becomes a serious issue.

I can't determine how many pages are left to do. I'm just following the flow and flow is more turbulent now. Can't take anything for granted.

It is exhausting and emotionally distressing. I don't know if it's because it's coming to an end or I'm just overwhelmed by the scale of the coming pages. I didn't feel this way when I wrapped up Masque or finished Tempest3.

Maybe it's because I threw in so much effort on this project. It's so much bigger than anything I've done before, but it was something I needed to do. It had to be the best that I could do, no slacking, no holding back. It had to be meticulous and solid, beginning to end. What I didn't realize was how long it would take and how much it would bleed me dry.

I wish I had the capacity to work on shorter things, but my mind can not comprehend a short story because life is too complicated to written in a short manner.

Anyway, when Red is done, I'll have to find a way to market it. Any suggestions? Because my brain is turning to slush at this time.